Masturbation- A Fallable Gaint
‘It is a habit I have cultivated since I was fourteen years
old, I cannot stop it, it is my cross to bear, it is an addiction’ Folake said
to herself trying to pacify her racing heart which refused slow down after been
drowned in guilt.
Folake like many teenagers today had high hopes and
aspirations while growing up, she was among the few of her peers that believed
in keeping her body until marriage. Time passed, flesh gaining grounds, she did not want to
follow the band wagon by losing her virginity yet her inquisitive nature wanted
to experience the pleasure her peers talked about. The social media was not
helping matters, the internet has become sexually explicit, novels had
fulfilled the quote ‘do not judge a book by its cover’, her friends where not
helping matters.
And then Just Once, like Adam she tasted the ‘forbidden’
consoling herself after all I did not do it with a guy, and then she could not
discontinue, this giant became a threat. It had become her source of
inconsistency with God, her source of lack of concentration and her only excuse
for not accomplishing her potential thus far then she remembered her pastors
saying, ‘sexual immorality would either make you wise and you would desist or
it would make you foolish’. Unfortunately, hers was a case of the latter, she
had become foolish and gradually losing her conscience, masturbation had become
a giant which was undefeatable in her eyes.
She loved God and was a dedicated christian she knew that
this was the major reason she was not working in her full potentials, she felt
helpless, she knew she was no different from others who had lost their
virginity, she appeared decent but was felt dirty when people called her decent
and when parents used her as an example to instruct their children.
Counselor Morayo took to the podium during the youth Sunday
and her first sentence was ‘you say you truly love your Father yet you stab him
at his back and then come to his front and say am sorry!’ ‘a paper and red ink
test would help us see the impact of our unfaithfulness, put a red ink on the
same plain paper every time you commit sexual immorality knowing in your heart
that you had the power to avoid it’ ‘some people have spent above ten years of
their life on this earth yet their brain still function like that of a day old
baby who lacks will power’.
Knowing that those words were mean for her, she hid her head
in shame and with her heart racing with guilt. She remembered what her pastor
always says ‘have you asked the Holy Spirit?’ and she took the first step, she
resolved that just like David conquered Goliath with catapult and stone, she
was going to battle masturbation with ‘the holy spirit and strong will’ once will is backed by the holy
spirit what can be a road block! She said to herself.
It was not an easy task bit gradually she began to hate
everything that had the tendency to pollute her spirit and kill her resolve,
the red ink on paper served as her means of self-examination and the word of
God never departed from her lips. She became victorious! The giant has been
conquered.
Advice yourself
today, test your will and mix it with the Holy Spirit’s touch! You would be
victorious.
